Oops! Will I Do It Again?!?

Think before you leap! It's easy to be wise after the event! These are not phrases alien to me! I do completely understand what they mean! Why then do I inevitably think only a fraction of a second after I've done the deed?!? Or, in the particular case I'm talking about, a couple of hours later! What is the deed I wanted to undo, you ask?!? Well, let's just say that a few days back, I sent a mail with a line I hadn't meant to have included in it! :-/ I did have a partner in crime in this instance, but that didn't help quell either of our uneasiness or anxieties! Not to say that that was the first time I'd done something like that! Sending text messages to the wrong person, getting confused and replying to the wrong messenger window in haste, sending mails (yeah, I've done it more than once!) to the wrong person; been there all, and worse still, done that all!!! I'm usually quite meticulously careful, but my scatterbrain self sometimes plays its much loved trick, and makes me blush with embarrassment, right down to the very roots of my ramrod straight strands of hair!

Often enough, nothing too bad has resulted from such mix-ups, but the moments after I do such things are painful nonetheless! In those moments, I feel only those emotions that begin with a t or a d, or an a or an f; trepidation, dread, apprehension, fear, tremor, distress, anxiety, fury (at my stupidity); you get the picture! Basically, the entire gamut of tremulous emotions that begin with any of these four alphabets! If I remember correctly, it's only once that I've really had to explain myself, while striving not to allow my embarrassment and the consequent reddening of my cheeks and all other visible parts of my body and face, display my discomfiture and bashfulness, enough to make me more of a dodo than I already was! No, dodos aren't extinct; there's a small one still alive somewhere in the confines of my oft pea-sized brain!

Most times, of course, the mix-ups have been relatively harmless, inviting, at the most, a noncommittal shrug of the shoulders, both mine and the receiver's! :-) Out of the some that have led me to almost sleepless nights, I was rewarded with being made the butt of many a joke for many a day for one of the earliest ones, a cheeky reply for another very stupid one, and absolutely nothing (barring a restless weekend) for a very recent one! Uh-oh! I hope I didn't speak too soon! The last one hasn't been too long gone to have been forgotten or buried somewhere deep inside the recesses of the minds of everyone concerned! Why else would I take so long to get it out of my system so!?! I've been toying with writing about this topic for quite a while now! (Not long enough for the deep burial thing to happen, though!)

Anyway, the crux of the matter is that I need to stop writing things to people they're not meant for, or sending things to people they're not meant to reach! I'm sure at least some of you have had yourselves succumb to such moments of temporary and partial brain numbness (if I may call it that!), but belonging to a clan or generalizing, doesn't make it even a wee bit better! Considering that I haven't been brave enough to recount the actual incidents, I don't expect I'll get to hear anybody else's either, but it sure feels good to have this out of my system!